Hard time dealing

I usually only blog about Faith, but tonight I am going to vent about me. I am feeling blah. In a rut, not myself, the list could go on and on.

I am dealing with a thyroid problem called hashimoto's hypothyroisim. I got this problem after I had Faith. It is an autoimmune problem that was triggered by my pregnancy.

I have been dealing with this for over a year now, and it still isn't under control.

The following was was taken from www.medicinenet.com

The symptoms of Hashimoto's thyroiditis are similar to those of hypothyroidism in general, which are often subtle. They are not specific (which means they can mimic the symptoms of many other conditions) and are often attributed to aging. Patients with mild hypothyroidism may have no signs or symptoms. The symptoms generally become more obvious as the condition worsens and the majority of these complaints are related to a metabolic slowing of the body. Common symptoms are listed below:

•Fatigue


•Depression


•Modest weight gain


•Cold intolerance


•Excessive sleepiness


•Dry, coarse hair


•Constipation


•Dry skin


•Muscle cramps


•Increased cholesterol levels


•Decreased concentration


•Vague aches and pains


•Swelling of the legs
As hypothyroidism becomes more severe, there may be puffiness around the eyes, a slowing of the heart rate, a drop in body temperature, and heart failure. In its most profound form, severe hypothyroidism may lead to a life-threatening coma (myxedema coma). In a severely hypothyroid individual, a myxedema coma tends to be triggered by severe illness, surgery, stress, or traumatic injury. This condition requires hospitalization and immediate treatment with thyroid hormones given by injection.


Do you know how hard it is to work full time and take care of a child and my household with this? I am not trying to have a pity party,but I feel wore out. I am tired of not getting any help for this. I have been to three different doctors and nothing has helped. I want to get pregnant within the next year and until my thyroid levels are under control all three doctors have said there is no way I would even be able to keep a pregnancy.

I want to stay at home with my babies. I hate that I am missing out on the day to day things, but I also enjoy working and feeling like I am contributing to our family. I don't want my husband to have to work work work,and miss out on our kids just so I can stay at home. So I am going to keep doing what I am doing.
Try to keep my head up, my eyes open, and just keep going through the motions.

Pity party over. sorry

Poop Party

Everyday on my lunch break I call to check on Faith. I never thought I would hear what I heard today when I called.

I called A and asked How Faith was. She said " She is good. But she has taken her grossness to a whole new level."

Apparently Miss Faith decided to take off her diaper during nap time this morning. She pooped, and didn't like it. She unsnapped her diaper and tossed the diaper and poop to the side. OMG!!! This is so nasty! I can't even believe it. Then she decided to pee all over the pack n play. Poor A had to clean all that up before 10am this morning!

I am glad that it happened there and not at home. Haha.

It has started making me wonder if she is ready to start potty training. I am thinking about getting a potty for her. I don't want to rush anything but obviously if she knows when she poops and takes her diaper off then I feel like we should start talking about it a little..

I am not forcing anything, but maybe she can sit on her potty while Damian and I are going to the bathroom?! I don't know. I am confused and disgusted.

What a gross little girl. But I still love love love her!

17 months ( Aug 11 )

One more month and my little girl will be 1 1/2 years old. Insane!

We are enjoying watching Faith grow and learn. She amazes us every day.
She has had a word explosion recently! She will at least attempt to try and say almost everything we say. She is saying a lot of words. I love it when she shakes her finger at the dogs and says" No, No, No" Too cute.
Her favorite sign and word are probably apple. She is always signing and saying apple!
She is weighing about 21 lbs now, and is starting to fit into some of her 18 month clothes. Her cloth diapers help her fit into them better. I don't realize how small she is until I see her with other kids her age and even kids younger than her. WOW she really is a small fry.

A small fry with a BIG attitude. As Damian likes to say " Jumbo Shrimp". Meaning, big attitude on a little person. She is stubborn and holds a grudge just like her momma! It makes me a little happy that somewhere in that mini version of Damian, there is a little bit of me. ;)

We have started having to do time outs. We have a really big dog bed in our dining room that we call the Lilly pad. That is where she goes for time outs. Now, before you start thinking " Oh My God, I can't believe they put that child on the dog bed " just know that it is a clean dog bed that our dogs very rarely are on. Faith plays on it more than the dogs are ever on it.

She loves dancing and still loves reading books. People ask us if she loves shows like Yo Gabba gabba etc. The answer is no. We don't let her watch TV. I won't let her watch any TV until she is at least 2. Call me a strict bad mom,but that is the way I feel. She will thank me later. Or so I hope. Haha.

Her eating has started to slow down. I was a little worried at first, but I just try and make sure she gets a balanced diet.

Getting decent pictures of this girl is damn near impossible these days. It is so hard to get her to sit still long enough to get a good shot.
So here are her 17 month pictures. One looks like a mug shot, and the other she is trying to get away.

Love her to pieces!

Cloth Diapering 24/7

I am soo happy to finally say we are cloth diapering all the time now. We finally convinced our daycare provider to start cloth diapering Faith. Faith was having a really hard time going back to disposables during the week. She was getting BLISTERS on her girly bits and we were not happy, and neither was she. The chemicals in the diapers was just too much for her skin. So A finally said YES to cloth diapering her.
I bought a diaper pail to keep over at A's house, and in the morning Damian puts a new liner in it when he drops Faith off. A justs puts the dirty dipes in the pail, and in the afternoon I come in and get the liner full of dipes out to take home and wash.
It is so great having her in just cloth. I don't enjoy spraying out the dirty poop diapers at the end, but who said being a mom was a glamorous job?!

Now that we are cloth diapering all the time, my addiction to buying diapers has gotten worse. Haha. I think in the month of July I bought 12 new diapers. I need to go to some sort of meetings or something to get help for my problem.

Buying cloth diapers puts a smile on my face. Seeing my sweet baby girl wearing cloth diapers, puts an even bigger smile on my face.