Ten on Tuesday

I haven't done 10 on Tuesday for a while, so I thought I would give it a shot. 1. Being a stay at home mom is the hardest job in the freaking world. No joke. I remember when I was working and I thought being a working mom was hard. ( not that it isn't hard, but being a SAHM is a lot harder for me ) I feel like I never get caught up on anything. There is always laundry to be done, dishes to be done, dogs to let in and out, butts to wipe, kids to feed etc. The list goes on and on, and some days I feel like I totally SUCK at being home with my kids. 2. I am still doing Zumba, and feel like it is my only ME time. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I can't wait until I am able to get out of the house and be FREE for just an hour. 3. I have been more stressed that I have been in a long time. Because I am staying at home and because Damian started a new business we don't have money like we used to and it stresses me to the MAX. As a result of this I have lost weight. Which leads me to number 4. 4. Even though we aren't doing the best with money right now, I do have something to be happy about. I have lost about 8 more pounds. I wear a size 4 and some of my pants are starting to get loose. This makes me happy. VERY happy. We also aren't eating out like we used to, so that is probably why I have lost more weight. That and I have good ol' Squishy, who still nurses through the night. He sucks the fat right from me. haha 5. My 10 year high school reunion is this August and part of me is excited to see everyone and part of me says " I got out of that town just as fast as I could, why do I want to go back?" 6. My sweet FIL bought Faith a bed set, pillows, and a new lamp for her new big girl bed. She is so excited, and hopefully Damian will be able to convert her toddler bed over within the next couple of days. 7. I am really trying to de-clutter our house, and it seems like I am really not having much luck. WE have to have a garage sale soon. We are overwhelmed with CRAP. I wish for my house to be clutter free, and for everything to have a spot, and for it to be clean. 8.This past Sunday Gracie ripped over her entire nail. I am talking about to the bone. Of course, she got blood everywhere. Carpet, my bed etc. So she has the cone of shame on and let me tell you, sleeping with a dog who has one of those on is not fun. Especially since she sleeps under the covers usually between my legs. 9. The past couple of weekends we have played it low key and just hung out around Kyle/ Buda area. We have been going to the pool, movies in the park etc. I don't think we have spent over $20 the past couple of weekends, but I have to say it has been some of the best times as a family. 10. I think I have finally talked Damian into getting rid of the cable. He is such a TV junkie it makes him really lazy. For the past two weeks he has not watched much TV and he has gotten so much more accomplished. I am praying that he makes the final leap and just turns the cable off.

Look at my grown up flower bed!!

Remember me saying how our awesome neighbor planted flowers and plants in our flowerbeds? Check out my pretties! I am so excited. I say that this is my first GROWN UP flower bed, because normally I go to Home Depot or Lowes and pick out cute Gerber daisies, and any other bright cutesie flowers I could find. I never cared if they could withstand the Texas heat, I just thought they were pretty and I wanted them. They looked great for all about 2 weeks and then they died. Now that I have two kiddos, I don't have the time or the money to waste on stuff like that. I knew that I wanted some flowers and plants in the beds, but I just didn't know where to start or what to do. So my lovely neighbor has helped me so much, and taught me so much about how I wanted perennials (they come back year after year ), and what kinds of flowers and plants can really stay alive with the heat. I am not taking any credit with how awesome this flower bed looks, because I didn't plant anything, Rhonda planted everything. She says it is a work in progress and as it grows I will keep taking pictures of how it looks. But right now I am amazed at how much better it looks than a bunch of weeds like before. I should have taken before and after pictures.

Wordless Wednesday

Besties

Faith just LOVES Caroline. Caroline is in her dance class, and their birthdays are just 20 days apart. She has had so much fun over the past couple weeks swimming and playing with her Bestie. :) Caroline loves to hold Noah too. :)

Good People

God has blessed us with so many amazing people in our lives. Just recently I have noticed it more than ever. This weekend alone, I had one friend swing by my house and drop off an armful of clothes she had gotten for Faith, and our neighbor across the street came over and helped Damian weed the flower beds and then, she planted beautiful plants and flowers in our flower beds. We used one of our home depot gift cards to go get soil, mulch and a couple plants, but she did everything else, plus added several plants and flowers from her own personal stash. This sweet woman has the most beautiful back yard. She is an avid gardener. We have also spent the last two weekends with an awesome family at the pool, and then BBQing at their house later in the evening. Damian and I are so happy to have found a couple to hang out with that are pretty much just like us. They even have a 3 year old daughter who Faith LOVES. We love you Mata's!

I promise to my kids...

I promise to my kids that I will call them everyday when they are grown, just to check on them and see how they are doing. I will love and support them no matter what, and help them out in whatever way I can. I want to do this for my kids, because I do not get this from my mom. I am not trying to put my mom on blast ( I am not sure if she even read this ) but I am just expressing how much I still need and long for her attention ( even at 28 years old ). I feel like our relationship is very one sided. Meaning, if I don't call her, or take the kids to see her, she doesn't see or talk to us. I went to therapy last year about this same issue with her, and I thought that things were slowly getting better until I stepped back and saw that it was me who was putting the effort in, and not her. I am so crazy jealous of other girls my age who have really strong bonds with their mom. I don't. It makes me so sad, but I have come to accept that this is the way it is, and I will have to deal with it. I do not want to be like that with my kids. I am so scared that I will. But everyday I try and remind myself of the mom I want to be, and the mom that I wished I had. My mom did the best she could with what she was dealing with at the time. That is me talking about my childhood. BUT, I want her to be a good grandma to my kids, and she seems to busy with her life to take 5 minutes out of her day to call and check on us. I guess she thinks she keeps up with us through facebook and that is good enough. I don't know. This is just me rambling off my thoughts, and I am sure that nothing will come of it. I just feel alone sometimes.

8 Month Post

Noah James, You are 8 months old today. -You are still sleeping in our bed, and honestly your daddy and I don't mind it at all. I am pretty sure that for the time being, this is where you will stay. - You still nurse about twice during the night. - You still won't take a bottle, but drink out of a sippy cup like a champ. - You are doing so great with food. - You don't sign anything yet, but when I sign milk, eat and more, you get very excited. I am hoping soon, you will sign your first sign. - You wear 12-18 month clothes. - You wear a size 4 diaper. - You love being in the water. - You think your sissy is so funny. - You are slowly getting better with your separation anxiety. I don't feel so stressed when I leave you with your daddy, because I know you will be good for him. So now we have to work on you getting used to everyone else. - You have four top teeth and two bottom teeth. I think two more are coming in on the bottom as we speak. - You are so very close to crawling. - You can pull your self up to standing. - You do not like any hats on your head :( You pull them off every time. - You weigh about 22lbs and are about 28 1/2 inches long. - You are a bitter. Not so much when I am nursing, but you bite me all the time on my arms. I have several bruises to prove it. - You are pretty happy most of the time, but when you do get upset, watch out!!!! We are so in love with you, and can't believe how fast you are growing up.